Holy hair plucking, Batman!

Happy Monday! First Monday with no actual schedule. Except my husband is also off and wanted to go see Solo, nice and early. 9:55 am to be exact. No matter, the theater was nice and empty. The chairs recline and the popcorn was fresh.

We were a little early and just as I was settling in, the texts began. My ex work wife demands I report to work since there was a problem and I am needed to get back there asap to help out. She was even more perturbed when I let her know where I was. Angry? Yes, I think that would be a better word for it. Then other ex co workers start texting, asking how the first Monday off is? Well frankly, who knows!

Just kidding, it’s kinda nice so far. Woke up when I wanted. I’m at a mall enjoying popcorn and a movie. The movie was actually pretty good.

We walked around the mall and I decided to get my eyebrows threaded while there. However, I thought, I might as well have my whole face done. I am a Latina with that fine light colored hair over my lip and around my jaw. We latinas are a bit hairy, it’s just the way it is. I usually just leave it since the more I’m in the sun the thicker it seems to get. Like a protective layer. It’s not that noticeable, so don’t go thinking full on beard and mustache or anything. Inserting a picture just so you can see what I mean.

I have been riding my bike a bit. So it’s there. I’m about to take a little trip, and thought I’ll just get this done and not have to worry about tweezing.

The place was empty. It’s Monday, how nice no line. I tell the nice young lady I want the whole face done. She directed me to her chair and got right to it. She told  me to hold my hair back and how to turn my head. So, ok it’s not that bad around the eyebrows, but those I tweeze on a regular basis. The Jaw area where it’s a little thicker is a whole different story. The young girl asks,”First time?”  I was thinking what was your first clue? I said um hmm. She just kept going. Then she hits the upper lip… holy hair plucking! That crap hurt! All I could do was laugh. It was either cry or laugh. So laugh it was. I wasn’t about to stop her either. She still had the other half of my face to do. Holy crap, kept coming to mind, as she kept going over the same spot over and over. So did bolting.. lmao.

 

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She finished up, I paid. Yes, I paid for that torture and even though I do love how soft my face feels, I felt a little awkward walking around the mall with the red splotches on my face as above.

Would I do it again? Yeah, probably. It’s fast and after the redness is gone looks pretty good.  I’m sure your pain tolerance is much better than mine. Its about the same as waxing. If you’ve tried threading let me know what your thoughts are on it.

Lunch in the food court, a little shopping and home again.  It was a nice day. Pain and all.

Hope your day was amazing!

 

 

Last day!

Chronicles of the last day of work:

Came out of the most amazing dream.

A wonderful man in a gray button up shirt was sitting with me on a bench outside. We had been talking about many things and he had said he had two pairs of wireless headphones. He said please just let me do something for you, anything. I said ok then I will take a pair of the headphones. I didn’t really care to have them but whatever. He smiled, we stood up he hugged me and I thought this is worth so much more to me. I just enjoyed the moment. Then we walked to his car, he opened the trunk and handed me a box. That’s where it ended, but, it was a beautiful connection, and a great start to my day.

The next hour or so was a flurry of getting ready for the day. No speaking.. my partner had no words other that angry ones. Which spoiled the whole best day ever mood. I had a little emotional breakdown… yeah not a moment to be proud of.

The commute was a quiet one…

An apology was made and so back on track.. lol I’m good!

Best morning ever!! Seriously nothing will bring me down.

Arrive at work, a coworker already here.. hmm

She had a present and a card all pretty on my desk. So sweet. She’s gonna miss me, lol. She has been my work wife for many years so it’s sad. Emails and fruit and hugs.. so many tears.

So after work, this happened a few times:

Thank God my husband poured me into our vehicle and drove me home. Tequila makes me all emotional. So I was a wreck. Tears and texting with family. If I texted you please don’t take it wrong, I was thinking of you and it was from my heart. I remember it all no worries. So got home, and to bed.

My last day at a job that I will definitely miss. I met so many wonderful people and learned so much. But it’s time for a new chapter .

Here I go!

Dream big baby

I received a text from a friend today. A picture of a very handsome actor with the quote, “Sending a girl a text that says, Good morning beautiful, can change her attitude all day. ” Uh yeah!

So the conversation continued about how yeah, like that would ever happen and even just a picture of that smile would be sweet and so on. Ended on the note of dream on… dream big since we’re dreaming. Lol..

Send your love a text. Make his or her dream come true. See how a small gesture of kindness can change someone’s whole day.

My message to you right here right now;

Hi, thinking of you…. I hope your day is ridiculously amazing. Much love

I’m just sorry you won’t smell the strawberry scented paper I wrote it on.

Right now, right now

So many things happening at this time, and not happening at this time. So just a little update.

Boxes being packed on one side of the house and at work.

One week left at work. Ok, yeah, I do a happy dance every morning when I get to work. My coworkers text and email the countdown every day, down to the minutes. They are so happy for me and for the seat I’m leaving open to them. Lol

However, this move is much more that just a physical move to me. I’m done with everything from yesterday. My past has molded me, yet I’m done with it. Fifty-five years and I’m making my own rules or non rules for the rest of my life. The proverbial box is no longer my home.

I’m into love and happiness. My home will only have room for this. I know this sounds simple, and maybe a little woo woo, but it isn’t where there are different views on life and it’s so called rules. It’s going to be interesting to say the least.

Freedom comes in different forms and in the last few years I have found that once you reach a certain point, not everyone is going to be happy with your change. I’ve said before it’s so much easier to keep your head down and just keep going. Not making waves. Well I’m riding this one all the way.

Living la Vida! One moment at a time and in the moment with those who choose to share the same.

The end of a day at the start of a day.

Today has been a rough day. I’ve lost someone that was dear to me. I hope he knew how much he meant. Looking back in my mind of memories he smiled all the time and was always kind, funny, and smart, he was just an awesome person. I know you hear this about everyone when they pass, but, I seriously don’t remember this man ever being unkind. I only knew him my whole life, and that’s a long time. Lol

Ok so I almost drowned you at Willow lake. Remember my dear Buck (Robert)? I was just a kid and you asked to use my snorkel. The water was maybe waist deep and you put your head under the water and kept kinda swimming around. I was a fool and thought what will happen if I put my finger in the snorkel at the top. Well, hello… You couldn’t breathe! After a few seconds, you stood up all freaked out and your eyes all big, and sucking for air. Omg, the look on your face! Even now, I’m laughing so hard I’m crying. Good thing it was shallow. No, you didn’t get mad but, it was a story we laughed at for years to come…one of many.

You were ill and I know you are no longer suffering but you will be dearly missed.

Hasta luego manito.

What are your intentions?

A year ago my heart put into motion one of the biggest jumps of my life. Have you ever felt that? Your heart just says this is it, and your soul concurs. It just stays there in the back of your mind and you can’t make it stop. I usually just stuff it down and go about my life but this time it was a pull so hard that there was no ignoring it.

In 25 days life as I know it will be a completely different thing. When I try to focus on this it tightens my chest and makes it a little hard to breathe. The past 17 years have been a blur of monotonous day in day out work and fast moving weekends. Even though I know this is the right move for me at this time it’s one of the scariest steps I have ever taken. I can’t wait.

My job is one that anyone would love. Too bad it’s in the wrong state. I will definitely miss the people I see on a regular basis and yes the regular income is a bit of a concern as well. However, I just know it’s going to be better.

Doubts? I’ve had a few but, there’s this place inside where I can just feel that it’s the right move. That place is calm and lit, I wish I could share this feeling with everyone. I guess we should always follow that little voice inside us all. Step out of our comfort zones and just rock it.

Have you done this? Felt this way? How many people out there have actually just laid it all down and said oh what the heck? I’m outta here? How did it go? When I tell someone my plan I expect to hear, are you crazy!? But for the most part, I get, wow, I wish I could do that. I’m always a little shocked when I hear that. I just want to say, you can. We all can. However I know how hard it can be. Uncertainty can bring you down, way down.  I’m very lucky to have so many loved ones cheering me on. Making it the right decision for us all.

Have you hit the 50 mark?

I’ve talked to so many people recently, that have hit their 50’s and are wondering what happened.

I’m fessing up to joining up on a website where you can be anonymously yourself and talk to others about whatever your lil heart desires. Yeah, it can be dirty or just be a place where you can let your hair down and speak your piece, or not. It’s a bit freeing.

I did learn that we all have our little secrets. So many of us walking around with that smiling mask, that even our closest people never see under. Now before you go judging me or my cohorts, take a look under yours.

Do you have a significant other that had asked you for something recently, or even in the past few years? Did they harp on it then suddenly quit? Did anything change? Do you want to keep that person? Now this can be anything. Usually sex yes, but can also be how or where you’re living. It can be anything this person holds dear or close. So don’t dismiss it as just a phase or whim. Listen people! Listen to your people! Because let me tell you if you don’t someone else in the same boat will. Do you want to risk that? How confident in your relationship are you? Deep? Nope actually easy. Listen, love,care and spend a little time. That’s it.

Now before you go thinking all these people are just in it for sex, stop, some of the men I spoke to, talk about wanting their wives. I found it sweet and heartening. Very few are done in their relationships. Just need to talk it out with someone they don’t know. Yes, a few feel trapped and need an outlet. But for the most part it wasn’t like that. I myself was on the site reading about different experiences and needing an outlet. I was feeling lonely and disconnected. Not looking for an online relationship. Just an outlet, like this, but with interaction.

So this took a different direction than what I had intended. Lol! I was going to write about hitting 50 and thinking maybe a change is needed. This experience I’ve had above didn’t make me feel this way. I already felt like I needed something else. I actually decided to get healthy. Well, a healthy body leads to a healthy mind. The fog cleared and all I could think is my life needs a change. I had to take a long hard look at myself. I found that work is what’s needed here. Inside and out. The only person that can do this is me. My happiness is on me. Time to take the path less traveled.

I’m in a committed relationship, have been for many years. However, I only want the same for him. A subject for another day.

Many blessings…

Dragonflies and bikes

So I took my first bike ride after the big fall. Ha! It was amazing. The weather was beautiful and it just felt great. I felt a little scared at first. Wasn’t sure the wrist would be strong enough to manage the brake. There are other people on that trail and that worries me. They can be so wrapped up in what they are doing that they tend to not see someone coming. So yes there was pain. Not enough to make me turn back though. My self confidence came back after a few miles and it turned out to be a pretty darned good ride.

The one thing that stood out was the dragonflies. Blue ones and they kept coming around. I took this as a good sign. Now I’m not talking about just seeing one or two. I mean I kept seeing them through the whole ride. They would buzz by my head. It was pretty cool.

Then the Good Year air ship. It was just flying by.

I need to get a helmet camera. So much passes by before I can get my phone out. Plus, I would be there all day taking pictures if I could.

My trusty steed

I stopped midway and this time had a little snack even if it wasn’t a super long ride. Call me chicken. I’m good with that.

You know pride goeth before the fall. So true, in my case anyway. lol

Near the end of my ride there was a cute little deer that stopped mid step in front of me then hopped off. I love when they hop like that. Cute and graceful. My heart was full.

On the jump phase of my life. Papers are sent in. So now just waiting to make sure they are all in order. These are papers for early retirement from the company I work at. Not long now…

 

 

Antojo

Antojo is a whim, like this post.

This song all night, in my head. Made me crazy, what it telling me? Is it telling me anything?  Just catchy? I love the flow of it. The words, yeah there you go…

What if I left and it made no sense
And you tell your friends and they hold your hands?
Baby, nevermind, nevermind
Nevermind, nevermind

But it’s another day in paradise, where there is adulting to do.  My bike is calling me as well.

Have an amazing day, take this catchy tune and if anything negative tries to get you down. Just say nevermind, nevermind.  Smile and feel the light within.

 

Oopsie

So while I get ready to take the big plunge, I’ve decided to enjoy the beautiful California bike trails. Riding my my vintage road bike alone gives me this amazing feeling of freedom. I use Strava and try to push myself to get faster and just stronger.

So I take off this beautiful Saturday morning. AirPods in, some kicking ass music. I felt amazing. I was having the best ride. I even saw a beautiful mountain lion, a gorgeous deer jumped out in front of me and it was just going great. I know you feel it coming lol… so I had thought I’m going out 10 Miles back 10. I went out the 10 and the lion was so on my mind. I need a picture or no one will believe it. So on the way back, I see two young ladies on the trail and I slow down tell them to be careful since I saw a mountain lion earlier. One young lady, was so scared telling me we just saw it, it’s right over there and she points behind me. I turned around but I didn’t see it. She continues, saying we didn’t know what to do, and we were waiting for some bike riders to come along. Poor thing, she was so scared. She asked if I had ever heard of them attacking anyone in the area. I haven’t but I guess it’s possible, right? I felt no fear. Which now that I think of it maybe should have. Anyway, I told her to go ahead and I was going back to see if I could get a picture of the cat. I looked around a bit and never saw it. However time was passing and of course there are things to do. I left and after a few miles I felt my energy quickly depleting. Lowest gear barely moving kind of bad. I had water on me, that’s it. I usually pack a few dates, but not today. There was a small hill and that was it, nothing left! Left clip out, right clip, right clip? Uhh yeah that’s me on the ground. Dang it! I was done… I dragged my sorry self over out of the way and sat there. Damn that’s embarrassing. No one saw me fall but the ego took quite a hit. I sat there trying to rest up a bit so I could move on and get home. Ok, so like, I felt pain all over, but when I tried to get up my right wrist wasn’t having it. What the heck!? Is that really so painful? I got up using my left side thinking ah it can’t be that bad. Um, I can’t even get back on the bike!! My arm starts shaking and it finally registers in my head, you have messed up big time now. So I make the call of shame. Hello? Husband? I messed up my arm and can’t ride my bike back. I think I need a ride to the ER. His response? WHAT!? Lol yeah I need a ride if possible. So he drove to the closest spot he could and I walked about 4 miles to the truck. I’m shaking my head now, just thinking about it.

My inner voice kept telling me, stop, rest a little while. But, no, I had to hurry since it was getting late. Lesson learned the hard way. Plus I ruined that whole day. ER took all day, and a month of bike riding. Cast is now off, however wrist is weak and stiff. I will be riding that same bike tomorrow. Stay tuned lol.

You would think this would make me second guess my plans. However, it hasn’t I feel as though this is just something that’s happened and it’s over.

It’s like I’m in this place inside myself. Focused, and there’s this calm in my soul. Love and light emanate. Nothing seems to bother me, hurt me yes. My feelings can be hurt but when I look into myself, I find that place again, and all is well. My path is lit and here I go.

Blessings