How it feels

July 17, 2022July 17, 2022Leave a comment

How does it feel?

Going through daily motions, when it’s obvious that it’s the last thing a person wants to do.

Maybe a good disconnect… or reconnect? Ha!

My first song choice fell away as soon as this came on.

Because seriously you don’t know how it feels, until it’s you.

Let me run with you tonight
I’ll take you on a moonlight ride

… There’s someone I used to see
But he don’t give a damn for me

… But let me get to the point, let’s roll another joint
And turn the radio loud, I’m too alone to be proud
And you don’t know how it feels
You don’t know how it feels to be me

Yup a song for everything….

✌️ 🖤

Hold my hand?

June 14, 2022June 14, 20223 Comments

This song just keeps bringing me out of whatever I’m doing. It’s a sign….

I won’t leave ’til I understand
Promise me, just hold my hand

🖤

So it goes, on and on

February 27, 2022February 27, 2022Leave a comment

Life just keeps rolling along.

Like it or not.

You know how they say it’s the little things?

It is, they just add up.

Like everything, just adds up. Your only choice is to keep going on your own steam.

You know I tried so long
Every time I thought I found it, I was wrong

I am the love of, the love of my life

✌️❤️

Raq

I am!

Am I?

January 19, 2022January 19, 2022Leave a comment

Am I living?

I’m breathing, talking, walking , and even smiling.

But am I living?

I’ll keep looking for the sun…

✌️❤️

Raq

Everytime

December 8, 2021Leave a comment

Every single time..

I lose someone and it’s like…

Just another moment… just one more…

This one is the worst… I still hear your laugh.. it was like music… one of those rare ones…

Sometimes I wish that I could wish it all away….

Raq…

Irony

October 27, 2021October 27, 2021Leave a comment

There is irony in the healing…

On the daily there seems to be a deep vortex of blackness that swallows me up by late afternoon. Yet I have found that by evening a letter from a stranger far away telling me of his life and daily happenings can actually help. For just a few minutes I can see life through someone else’s eyes. The only person that may actually get it. No tip toeing around what’s happened and actually showing up. What a special kind of person. A real friend? Isn’t it ironic? Who shows up and who doesn’t.

Here’s to real people… they are so rare….

The song? Just a smooth lovely listen.

✌️❤️

Raq

Moody

October 24, 20212 Comments

The current mood anyway..is auto pilot…

So stay busy or shut down? Nothing in between…

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8y1mefx/

Hiding and being present? As he watches.

✌️❤️

Carry on?

October 22, 2021October 22, 2021Leave a comment

How does one move on?

One foot in front of the other as before. I suppose.

This world is a lonely place, especially when you’re on the inside looking out. Smile and everyone will think you’re ok.

Is it even real?

In a time of grief…. You see things even clearer. ( is that a word?)

Wish I could trade places….

I miss you more than life…

✌️❤️

The last letter

October 1, 2021October 2, 20212 Comments

I don’t even know where to start.. the heartache? The beginning?

Memories flood my mind of you as a child, as a teen, as a father.. your smile, laugh, and how you would try to protect me.

I suppose every mother who loses a child thinks the thoughts of I was supposed to go first.. how dare you? Were you alone? Did you know you were leaving us? I’m so selfish thinking how your death will affect my life.. your children? How will they grow up without you?

This is a the last song you posted on your Facebook… did you know?