Just another day in paradise

Miss me? crickets…

Still here! Alive and all.

So it’s been a week!

Got some new ink! About time right?

So this piece was a learning experience. Have you ever heard of the tattoo flu? It’s a real thing. Google it.

The day of the tattoo I was so busy. I kept thinking I’ll get something to eat in a sec. Sec never happened and then, omg, I better go so I won’t be late. So all went well til it didn’t. My artist was working and I started to feel a chill. I had my jacket over my legs and started to feel a chill. This should have been a clue. I asked my artist is it cold in here? She said “no, it’s pretty nice in here actually. So we continued. Talking and tatting.. She’s a beautiful girl and we talked about all sorts of things. Afterward I stood up put on my jacket and started to shake. There was a woman standing next to me who said you’re going into shock.. I was all what? I’ve had numerous tattoos never , have I ever, experienced anything close to this. So I walked outside to go to my vehicle. Saw a friend and told her I can’t stop shaking, she says, you’re going into shock. So everyone knows this but me? I went to my car turned up the heat and the seat warmer. Texted someone else who immediately got concerned. Isn’t it funny who you tell things to when there’s a problem? Lesson learned is all I can say. Next time, full meal. taking water and a friend.

So it took me a week to get over whatever I had and it was no picnic. Still nursing a fever blister on the lip.

So here’s a picture of the offending tattoo.

Pretty isn’t it?

It’s blue his favorite color. He loved snakes as well. I have so many pictures with him holding a rattler. I was always scared he was going to get bitten. The Orchid for strength to keep living without him in this life. Something beautiful has to come out of something so awful. Doesn’t it?

I will always miss him.

One of his favorites

I hope your heart is at peace and you are fully loved.

✌️🖤

Raq

Jealous

So very jealous of the sun

That warms your brown skin

The wind that lightly caresses you

The time I spend away from you

The song is beautiful, almost fitting

What!? It could happen!

Until we meet again

Raq

More Than

More than

This body, this face

As I sit here looking at my last surviving child that is intubated and has tubes running in and out of her body. It hits so hard how we are so much more than this body that houses our being.

She is sunshine, happiness, kindness and love..

When she was a child I remember being at a hospital visiting someone and it was her birthday. My daughters birthday. She was tiny, maybe 4 or 5. She had chosen a Barbie at the store because we were out of town. While we were in the waiting room there was a sick child she saw and spoke to. Yes, it was a long time ago. She pulled me aside and asked if she could give the little girl the doll. Of course I said yes, and I got a bit emotional. But that’s when I knew the heart in my child. As she got older it got more expensive. She couldn’t see someone not having what she had.

Now don’t get it twisted she has the heart of a lion. I’ve seen her take on her brother for fun and anyone who threatens someone she loves.

But the goodness outweighs all the bad.

No matter what happens she will be ok.. so will I. Because I got to be her mom.

R

What’s Age got to do with it?

At what age is age important?

I say you’re too young, with a reply of … that doesn’t matter.

Yeah, I’m thinking it does.

I see older men younger women all the time. Sure that he must have money stigma is there but they could actually be in love right? Now the other way.. why is that different?

However, why are there so many men, young men out there asking older women out? What’s happened? Did I miss something? A friend is widowed (it’s been like 5 years, so don’t judge) and loving her new found freedom. She says the young guys want older women because they are confident and not looking for a sugar daddy. Ok but are the guys looking for a sugar momma? Lol.. ahh the other side of the story.

Now the amazing opening was in Spanish and you all know that my language is sexy.. With all due respect I find you so beautiful. Really? I’ve known you about a year.. didn’t see that coming, then the offer was a star filled night talking about things we don’t understand. Damn it… do you know me? Lol

Then the actual problem.. yeah, I’ll not get into all that.

Nothing a little month nap and some outdoorsy stuff can’t fix. Let’s steal away and watch a sunset.

Alone?

Come and see.. wait, you’re here 😉

✌️❤️

Raq

Forgiveness

I love Tyler Perry movies..

Today I watched Diary of a mad black woman, for the upteenth time. Love it.. In his movies karma and forgiveness play a big part and this one is no exception.

For some reason today it was even more meaningful than anytime before.

If I ever loved you, I will love you always. I mean what I say and it’s been a hard pill to swallow that others don’t.

Missing something inside but, knowing that God has this, is everything. The rapture of being alive.

Peace and so much love on this Easter Day..

Raq

If I be wrong

What lovely a song

The lyrics the instruments even the video. Which I rarely watch. it’s just an all around sensory overload of love and beauty.

What if I’m wrong, what if I’ve lied
What if I’ve dragged you here to my own dark night

If I be wrong, if I be right
Let me stay here in your arms tonight

✌️🖤

Raq

Another one

Another song! Yes, another, stay on your mind and keep replaying, making you rethink your life… kind of song 🤣

Just a really good song….less words more listening ha!

Keep me safe
We need light, we need love

So like how is it a person can make you feel safe with just their existence. The words they use and air. This song just said it. I’m in awe.

On a different note. I was called a knucklehead head today. In a sweet way even. Never saw that comin 🤣

Another revolution around the sun too!

✌️❤️