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Grateful

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Started this post a few days ago then got busy.

The song was what prompted the post.

Today woke up angry.

Just not a happy camper. I can feel anger emanating. So Unlike me.

This little face warmed my heart

Is that a smile?

Spent a little time with her, then off to work. Still angry. Now let me just say I try to keep the negative thoughts to myself. Lots of self talk… came here to vent. Found the draft from the other morning. It had this song and it reminded me of the morning I first heard it. Yeah so much better.

Grateful I woke up again (Amen) Woke up and took a breath again (Yahweh) Looked up and saw the sun again(oh) I’m grateful for the eyes I have (Amen) I’m moving all my toes again (Amen) I’m grateful for the wind against my face(hum) I’m grateful for the sensation(sensation) Of a loved one’s embrace.

Grateful for all this and more.

Peace and so much love

Raq

Currently

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A vacant heart, a silent mind, 
No tears to fall, no pain to find. 
A canvas bare, no colors bright, 
Just quiet strength, a healing light. 

The echoes fade, the storm now gone, 
A hollow space where grief once shone. 
No joy, no sorrow, just a pause, 
A steady breath, a healing cause. 

Like shattered glass, the pieces mend, 
A new beginning, a journey to ascend. 
No pulse of emotion, yet a steady beat, 
A quiet healing, bittersweet.

I guess all I really need is a little good news.

✌️🖤

Raq

What Siri!!

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My phone keeps suggesting I open up my app and write something. So ok!

I heard an amazing song anyway. One I need to share 🙂

Life is free and easy.. love is a different story. Like? Yeah, I like it all lol…

Could you be that fine love uhm
That 1949 love uhm
That quiver in your spine love
The summer wine love
Could you be that sweet love
That sated replete love uhm
That Mediterranean heat love huuu huuu
That stuck-on-repeat love
Just grab a warm body

Sheesh those pretty lyrics.

Hope your love is all this and more.

✌️🖤

Raq

The Twists

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The twists and turns of life.

How is it that when something devastating happens you think this is it. Yet, you go on. Like, you just fake it, til you make it. It’s gotten hairy in the last couple, three years but I’m still standing.

The people you need to have around for comfort ? Well, let’s say who?

The last couple days, I hear from someone who was checking out the greener grass.. I, like a fool check out that site.. the one with the green, or magenta grass.. sheesh. You tried so hard, and what happened?

I’m not the same person anymore. Life has gone on., so have I. See my grass is really green. Besides, who wants what anyone can have?

Lock me up in a maze
Turn out, turn out the lights
I was born, I was raised for this
Turn out, turn out the lights
Lock me up inside a cage
Just throw away the key, don’t worry bout me..

I can do this with my eyes closed…

✌️❤️

Raq

What if?

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What if I’m just sitting here

Minding my own business

Watching an old movie.

The Universe sends me a notice through Apple Music.

Hey! Listen to this song…

What if I don’t deserve it?
What if I never find real love?
What if I’m always searching
But the problem was me all along?

These lyrics cannot resonate with a Scorpio…

But boy, for just a couple of minutes I felt all those feelings.

I AM enough, so are you…

✌️❤️

Raq

Pick up the phone

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So I heard this song a little while ago.

It brought up feelings… like I actually have those.. ok, so I must.

Who do I have like this?… no, I mean really?

Lots will say oh you can count on me, I’ll be there whenever. In actuality? Nadie, nobody. Is that the empty feeling in the pit of my soul?

ok, I’m sure you’re thinking are you there for others? I’d like to think I am. Don’t we all?

I will fill it with…

This amazing song, for now.

You’re not alone, just pick up the phone
And call me whenever you’re feeling lonely
Remember you told me
You’re not alone, just pick up the phone

Sweet lyrics…

I wish you love and peace,

Raq

More Than

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More than

This body, this face

As I sit here looking at my last surviving child that is intubated and has tubes running in and out of her body. It hits so hard how we are so much more than this body that houses our being.

She is sunshine, happiness, kindness and love..

When she was a child I remember being at a hospital visiting someone and it was her birthday. My daughters birthday. She was tiny, maybe 4 or 5. She had chosen a Barbie at the store because we were out of town. While we were in the waiting room there was a sick child she saw and spoke to. Yes, it was a long time ago. She pulled me aside and asked if she could give the little girl the doll. Of course I said yes, and I got a bit emotional. But that’s when I knew the heart in my child. As she got older it got more expensive. She couldn’t see someone not having what she had.

Now don’t get it twisted she has the heart of a lion. I’ve seen her take on her brother for fun and anyone who threatens someone she loves.

But the goodness outweighs all the bad.

No matter what happens she will be ok.. so will I. Because I got to be her mom.

R

Forgiveness

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I love Tyler Perry movies..

Today I watched Diary of a mad black woman, for the upteenth time. Love it.. In his movies karma and forgiveness play a big part and this one is no exception.

For some reason today it was even more meaningful than anytime before.

If I ever loved you, I will love you always. I mean what I say and it’s been a hard pill to swallow that others don’t.

Missing something inside but, knowing that God has this, is everything. The rapture of being alive.

Peace and so much love on this Easter Day..

Raq

If I be wrong

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What lovely a song

The lyrics the instruments even the video. Which I rarely watch. it’s just an all around sensory overload of love and beauty.

What if I’m wrong, what if I’ve lied
What if I’ve dragged you here to my own dark night

If I be wrong, if I be right
Let me stay here in your arms tonight

✌️🖤

Raq

Another one

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Another song! Yes, another, stay on your mind and keep replaying, making you rethink your life… kind of song 🤣

Just a really good song….less words more listening ha!

Keep me safe
We need light, we need love

So like how is it a person can make you feel safe with just their existence. The words they use and air. This song just said it. I’m in awe.

On a different note. I was called a knucklehead head today. In a sweet way even. Never saw that comin 🤣

Another revolution around the sun too!

✌️❤️