I think I lost it

But then again did I ever have it?

Your excuses not needed..

Ok so a few of the lyrics, as usual.

Everything’s paid for nothing free
If I give my heart
Will you promise not to break it
I think I lost it
Let me know if you come across it
Let me know if I let it fall
Along a back road somewhere

I just wanna live the life I please
I don’t want no enemies
I don’t want nothing if I have to fake it
Never take nothing don’t belong to me

Listen to it it’s kinda bad ass..

Moving on….

✌️❤️

Raq

I wanna know

Do you remember meeting someone new and just connecting.

Talking all day, into the night.. til morning.

Then it gets real and the music kicks in.

Music

It’s always there to remind you, transport you, soothe you.

To connect you with the right souls.

✌️❤️

Raq

Future?

I heard this song that I love. I loved it because it filled me with hope. Hope of the future and happiness of looking back and remembering the highlights…

Today it only filled me with sadness. Sadness for all those who are not going to have that chance. For us all….

Our world has changed and I fear it will never be the same.

Stay safe and healthy..

So much love and peace to you and yours,

Raq

Everything

Mmmmm

Baby I’m worth it…

We can have everything…

This song just makes…..

Everything ….

Dance with me?…..

In the kitchen of course

Stay inside! Dance… love.. be healthy and safe

✌️❤️

Raq

Las Clichés

Choose happiness they say…

Happiness is within you they say…

The universe is always sending messages they say…

If you are thinking about them, they are thinking about you…. ok this one is funny, because it cannot be true.

Dime con quien andas y te dire quien eres. Means tell me who you walk with and I will tell you who you are.

El amor es ciego. Meaning Love is blind.

Life is not a destination, it’s a journey.

Ok you get the gist…. They say a lot. Who are they and why do they have to say so much? 😆

Seriously though, if we are the key to our own happiness then why do we have so many people around us that mean so much? Love is the key? Yes, I know love yourself… but isn’t it much better shared?

I can’t make myself tremble just by being, nor can I make myself ache to the core. My heart doesn’t quicken at the mere thought of myself. My voice doesn’t sound like music to my ears either. Rare is this kind of connection, yes I know. Worse is when someone breaks that connection. The magic is broken and then? Is it better never to have known it? And once broken, can it ever be revived? I don’t think it can be the same.

It’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. Well señor Tennyson, I’m not so sure about that.

There is also the red string of fate. Have you heard of this? It a Japanese legend where a person’s pinky is tied to another person’s pinky and eventually they are fated to meet. I’m just here to tell you,that string gets knotted and tangled a bit. Who’s to say one person doesn’t own a pair of scissors?

I guess love is illusive, and elusive.

Much of it to you though

Raq 💕

Today it’s official

I’ve no job!

Retired! The future is wide open!

Smell that? it’s called freedom… lol

No more Brules for this one!

A new chapter begins, so much to do and see. New people to meet and connections to make. So much is changing… including myself. Like a tree, I will be dropping dead leaves and only keep the vibrant green along for the ride, or maybe growth. I suppose trees don’t take rides. Whatever, you get my gist. Lol!

Ahh La Vida!

Much Love ❤️

Bye bye monkey

That one on my back,

See ya!

Hasta!

Today is lit with possibilities…

Last few days have been rough.. but, I’ve centered my fruity ass and can take it on…

Thanks to those of you who throw out all the inspiration. Much love to you!

I got a mind full of aggravation

I can take it if I just relax

I say a prayer for the motivation

Keep me solid so I stay on track

But there’s a monkey on my back

And it don’t know how to act

Got me climbin’ up and down the walls

Now I gotta make a choice

Maybe then I can rejoice

‘Cause I’m sick of all the same withdrawals

I got a mind full of inspiration

And I ain’t livin’ in the past no more

So feast your eyes

On the big, blue sky

And wave bye bye

From a long, black Cadillac

Pay the price

Gotta roll those dice

And wave bye bye

From a long, black Cadillac

From a long, black Cadillac (Cadillac)

Right now, right now

So many things happening at this time, and not happening at this time. So just a little update.

Boxes being packed on one side of the house and at work.

One week left at work. Ok, yeah, I do a happy dance every morning when I get to work. My coworkers text and email the countdown every day, down to the minutes. They are so happy for me and for the seat I’m leaving open to them. Lol

However, this move is much more that just a physical move to me. I’m done with everything from yesterday. My past has molded me, yet I’m done with it. Fifty-five years and I’m making my own rules or non rules for the rest of my life. The proverbial box is no longer my home.

I’m into love and happiness. My home will only have room for this. I know this sounds simple, and maybe a little woo woo, but it isn’t where there are different views on life and it’s so called rules. It’s going to be interesting to say the least.

Freedom comes in different forms and in the last few years I have found that once you reach a certain point, not everyone is going to be happy with your change. I’ve said before it’s so much easier to keep your head down and just keep going. Not making waves. Well I’m riding this one all the way.

Living la Vida! One moment at a time and in the moment with those who choose to share the same.

La vida siempre…

Todavia esperando el viento de libertad..

Funny but I found this old blog from years ago, one that I used as an outlet. I used the blog and hobbies to help deal with the fact that something was missing. My soul needed… I actually thought I knew just what it needed, but found it unattainable. I blamed circumstances beyond my control.  It is what it is, right?

Made a few changes to my life and not only did it change my health but it cleared my mind. Changed my thinking.

I have gone through stages of sadness, self loathing, and finally the realization that you only have yourself in this life. No matter what, the decisions you make have you where you are.

Happy? This is the question, are you happy?  So what makes you happy? Even this may not be just what you think. I have come to the find that love and family are all I need. The simple things, like you hear the old folks tell. Well dang, they are so right.  I am the old folk now!

You hear all the clichés like just do it, and whatever else, but life is hard and you just keep going because let’s face it, it’s just easier…

Change, change is hard. Not knowing how it’s going to pan out that’s scary as heck. No matter how much you plan and save one little glitch can ruin the whole thing. So do you keep on with the known and just keep being unhappy? Do you take the plunge into the unknown and take the chance on happiness? I’m gonna take the plunge.  There are few things I want to do before I can’t and its time.

This is where I’m going to let it all hang out. Vamos a ver que pasa.