Giving Thanks

So much to be thankful for.

This is the first Thanksgiving with my family in 17 years. It’s already so emotional.

We’ve had to rent a place since there will be a few more than usual.

Along with my family are my friends, both in the real world as well as my internet ones.

You.. I am very grateful for you…

I am truly blessed.

So much love and so many blessings to you.

Raq ūüėė

Right now, right now

So many things happening at this time, and not happening at this time. So just a little update.

Boxes being packed on one side of the house and at work.

One week left at work. Ok, yeah, I do a happy dance every morning when I get to work. My coworkers text and email the countdown every day, down to the minutes. They are so happy for me and for the seat I’m leaving open to them. Lol

However, this move is much more that just a physical move to me. I’m done with everything from yesterday. My past has molded me, yet I’m done with it. Fifty-five years and I’m making my own rules or non rules for the rest of my life. The proverbial box is no longer my home.

I’m into love and happiness. My home will only have room for this. I know this sounds simple, and maybe a little woo woo, but it isn’t where there are different views on life and it’s so called rules. It’s going to be interesting to say the least.

Freedom comes in different forms and in the last few years I have found that once you reach a certain point, not everyone is going to be happy with your change. I’ve said before it’s so much easier to keep your head down and just keep going. Not making waves. Well I’m riding this one all the way.

Living la Vida! One moment at a time and in the moment with those who choose to share the same.

Amor

Love, Love, Love

Yeah baby… love. ¬† So a person told me not very long ago there are many forms of love. ¬†Which yeah there are. ¬†I just really don’t think about it very much. ¬†Does anyone?

You love your family. Yeah
You love your friends. Yeah
You love your pets. Yeah

Then there is that one love.. Amor. ¬†The stuff you read about and movies are made of. ¬†That soul sucking, heart wrenching, mind melting stuff people dream of. ¬†Is it real? Damn straight it is. Ask any Latina out there. We love hard and so when we get broken.. we break hard. Haven’t you heard any of our sad, broken hearted songs? They make country songs sound like a ray of sunshine. Ok ok I’m kidding, kinda.

People use the term I love you all the time.  The meaning seems to vary depending on the person saying it.  I find that actions are so much louder. People are busy, life is busy.  So for someone to take a little time in their day is indeed a sign. Then again no message is also a message.

Someone dear to me brought this song to my attention, Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.   A few lines from it are:

Those three words
are said too much
They’re not enough

I have to agree. You can tell a person all day how much you care or love them, but at the end of the day its going to be how you treat that person.  If you value their heart you will treat it with care, as if it were your own.  Not just at first,  because its new and exciting.  But later on too.

ok I’m gonna come off as a fairytale reading kind of person. However it’s my story so deal.

Shouldn’t there be a bigger connection? Is there a bigger connection?

Ahh yeah, that one connection… The one who gets you, who doesn’t care about yesterday. This person knows that’s what made you today. Made you the person he or she adores. No judgement, just a learning and a yearning. Like that? Lol. They are also around to be there for you. To raise you up, not break you down.

What’s this got to do with this blog? ¬†Happiness, the pursuit of happiness. ¬†Love has to be a part of it doesn’t it?

La vida siempre…

Todavia esperando el viento de libertad..

Funny but I found this old blog from years ago, one that I used as an outlet. I used the blog and hobbies to help deal with the fact that something was missing. My soul needed… I actually thought I knew just what it needed, but found it unattainable. I blamed circumstances beyond my control. ¬†It is what it is, right?

Made a few changes to my life and not only did it change my health but it cleared my mind. Changed my thinking.

I have gone through stages of sadness, self loathing, and finally the realization that you only have yourself in this life. No matter what, the decisions you make have you where you are.

Happy? This is the question, are you happy?  So what makes you happy? Even this may not be just what you think. I have come to the find that love and family are all I need. The simple things, like you hear the old folks tell. Well dang, they are so right.  I am the old folk now!

You hear all the clich√©s like just do it, and whatever else, but life is hard and you just keep going because let’s face it, it’s just easier…

Change, change is hard. Not knowing how it’s going to pan out that’s scary as heck. No matter how much you plan and save one little glitch can ruin the whole thing. So do you keep on with the known and just keep being unhappy? Do you take the plunge into the unknown and take the chance on happiness? I’m gonna take the plunge. ¬†There are few things I want to do before I can’t and its time.

This is where I’m going to let it all hang out. Vamos a ver que pasa.