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Grateful

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Started this post a few days ago then got busy.

The song was what prompted the post.

Today woke up angry.

Just not a happy camper. I can feel anger emanating. So Unlike me.

This little face warmed my heart

Is that a smile?

Spent a little time with her, then off to work. Still angry. Now let me just say I try to keep the negative thoughts to myself. Lots of self talk… came here to vent. Found the draft from the other morning. It had this song and it reminded me of the morning I first heard it. Yeah so much better.

Grateful I woke up again (Amen) Woke up and took a breath again (Yahweh) Looked up and saw the sun again(oh) I’m grateful for the eyes I have (Amen) I’m moving all my toes again (Amen) I’m grateful for the wind against my face(hum) I’m grateful for the sensation(sensation) Of a loved one’s embrace.

Grateful for all this and more.

Peace and so much love

Raq

What Siri!!

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My phone keeps suggesting I open up my app and write something. So ok!

I heard an amazing song anyway. One I need to share 🙂

Life is free and easy.. love is a different story. Like? Yeah, I like it all lol…

Could you be that fine love uhm
That 1949 love uhm
That quiver in your spine love
The summer wine love
Could you be that sweet love
That sated replete love uhm
That Mediterranean heat love huuu huuu
That stuck-on-repeat love
Just grab a warm body

Sheesh those pretty lyrics.

Hope your love is all this and more.

✌️🖤

Raq

What the Universe!?

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So yeah the Universe is always throwing it back.. In your face

Go bug somebody else, so I can sleep at night
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else’s life

Those ending lyrics there, well, they caught my ear. Made me turn around and say huh, did I just hear that? After a fast Google search, why, yes, yes you did. Heh.

If you get away from that someone, the devil always sends them back.. to see if you’re still a fool.. Not today Satan! Not today!

✌️❤️

Raq

Pick up the phone

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So I heard this song a little while ago.

It brought up feelings… like I actually have those.. ok, so I must.

Who do I have like this?… no, I mean really?

Lots will say oh you can count on me, I’ll be there whenever. In actuality? Nadie, nobody. Is that the empty feeling in the pit of my soul?

ok, I’m sure you’re thinking are you there for others? I’d like to think I am. Don’t we all?

I will fill it with…

This amazing song, for now.

You’re not alone, just pick up the phone
And call me whenever you’re feeling lonely
Remember you told me
You’re not alone, just pick up the phone

Sweet lyrics…

I wish you love and peace,

Raq

Just another day in paradise

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Miss me? crickets…

Still here! Alive and all.

So it’s been a week!

Got some new ink! About time right?

So this piece was a learning experience. Have you ever heard of the tattoo flu? It’s a real thing. Google it.

The day of the tattoo I was so busy. I kept thinking I’ll get something to eat in a sec. Sec never happened and then, omg, I better go so I won’t be late. So all went well til it didn’t. My artist was working and I started to feel a chill. I had my jacket over my legs and started to feel a chill. This should have been a clue. I asked my artist is it cold in here? She said “no, it’s pretty nice in here actually. So we continued. Talking and tatting.. She’s a beautiful girl and we talked about all sorts of things. Afterward I stood up put on my jacket and started to shake. There was a woman standing next to me who said you’re going into shock.. I was all what? I’ve had numerous tattoos never , have I ever, experienced anything close to this. So I walked outside to go to my vehicle. Saw a friend and told her I can’t stop shaking, she says, you’re going into shock. So everyone knows this but me? I went to my car turned up the heat and the seat warmer. Texted someone else who immediately got concerned. Isn’t it funny who you tell things to when there’s a problem? Lesson learned is all I can say. Next time, full meal. taking water and a friend.

So it took me a week to get over whatever I had and it was no picnic. Still nursing a fever blister on the lip.

So here’s a picture of the offending tattoo.

Pretty isn’t it?

It’s blue his favorite color. He loved snakes as well. I have so many pictures with him holding a rattler. I was always scared he was going to get bitten. The Orchid for strength to keep living without him in this life. Something beautiful has to come out of something so awful. Doesn’t it?

I will always miss him.

One of his favorites

I hope your heart is at peace and you are fully loved.

✌️🖤

Raq

Jealous

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So very jealous of the sun

That warms your brown skin

The wind that lightly caresses you

The time I spend away from you

The song is beautiful, almost fitting

What!? It could happen!

Until we meet again

Raq

More Than

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More than

This body, this face

As I sit here looking at my last surviving child that is intubated and has tubes running in and out of her body. It hits so hard how we are so much more than this body that houses our being.

She is sunshine, happiness, kindness and love..

When she was a child I remember being at a hospital visiting someone and it was her birthday. My daughters birthday. She was tiny, maybe 4 or 5. She had chosen a Barbie at the store because we were out of town. While we were in the waiting room there was a sick child she saw and spoke to. Yes, it was a long time ago. She pulled me aside and asked if she could give the little girl the doll. Of course I said yes, and I got a bit emotional. But that’s when I knew the heart in my child. As she got older it got more expensive. She couldn’t see someone not having what she had.

Now don’t get it twisted she has the heart of a lion. I’ve seen her take on her brother for fun and anyone who threatens someone she loves.

But the goodness outweighs all the bad.

No matter what happens she will be ok.. so will I. Because I got to be her mom.

R

What’s Age got to do with it?

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At what age is age important?

I say you’re too young, with a reply of … that doesn’t matter.

Yeah, I’m thinking it does.

I see older men younger women all the time. Sure that he must have money stigma is there but they could actually be in love right? Now the other way.. why is that different?

However, why are there so many men, young men out there asking older women out? What’s happened? Did I miss something? A friend is widowed (it’s been like 5 years, so don’t judge) and loving her new found freedom. She says the young guys want older women because they are confident and not looking for a sugar daddy. Ok but are the guys looking for a sugar momma? Lol.. ahh the other side of the story.

Now the amazing opening was in Spanish and you all know that my language is sexy.. With all due respect I find you so beautiful. Really? I’ve known you about a year.. didn’t see that coming, then the offer was a star filled night talking about things we don’t understand. Damn it… do you know me? Lol

Then the actual problem.. yeah, I’ll not get into all that.

Nothing a little month nap and some outdoorsy stuff can’t fix. Let’s steal away and watch a sunset.

Alone?

Come and see.. wait, you’re here 😉

✌️❤️

Raq

If I be wrong

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What lovely a song

The lyrics the instruments even the video. Which I rarely watch. it’s just an all around sensory overload of love and beauty.

What if I’m wrong, what if I’ve lied
What if I’ve dragged you here to my own dark night

If I be wrong, if I be right
Let me stay here in your arms tonight

✌️🖤

Raq

What?

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This song…

All the deepest secrets
All the darkest moments
Oh, I promise they’ll be safe with me
We’ve all been broken
There’s no exception
But you carry it so gracefully

The piano, the song.. just beautiful

✌️❤️