Everything

Mmmmm

Baby I’m worth it…

We can have everything…

This song just makes…..

Everything ….

Dance with me?…..

In the kitchen of course

Stay inside! Dance… love.. be healthy and safe

✌️❤️

Raq

Right now, right now

So many things happening at this time, and not happening at this time. So just a little update.

Boxes being packed on one side of the house and at work.

One week left at work. Ok, yeah, I do a happy dance every morning when I get to work. My coworkers text and email the countdown every day, down to the minutes. They are so happy for me and for the seat I’m leaving open to them. Lol

However, this move is much more that just a physical move to me. I’m done with everything from yesterday. My past has molded me, yet I’m done with it. Fifty-five years and I’m making my own rules or non rules for the rest of my life. The proverbial box is no longer my home.

I’m into love and happiness. My home will only have room for this. I know this sounds simple, and maybe a little woo woo, but it isn’t where there are different views on life and it’s so called rules. It’s going to be interesting to say the least.

Freedom comes in different forms and in the last few years I have found that once you reach a certain point, not everyone is going to be happy with your change. I’ve said before it’s so much easier to keep your head down and just keep going. Not making waves. Well I’m riding this one all the way.

Living la Vida! One moment at a time and in the moment with those who choose to share the same.

Have you hit the 50 mark?

I’ve talked to so many people recently, that have hit their 50’s and are wondering what happened.

I’m fessing up to joining up on a website where you can be anonymously yourself and talk to others about whatever your lil heart desires. Yeah, it can be dirty or just be a place where you can let your hair down and speak your piece, or not. It’s a bit freeing.

I did learn that we all have our little secrets. So many of us walking around with that smiling mask, that even our closest people never see under. Now before you go judging me or my cohorts, take a look under yours.

Do you have a significant other that had asked you for something recently, or even in the past few years? Did they harp on it then suddenly quit? Did anything change? Do you want to keep that person? Now this can be anything. Usually sex yes, but can also be how or where you’re living. It can be anything this person holds dear or close. So don’t dismiss it as just a phase or whim. Listen people! Listen to your people! Because let me tell you if you don’t someone else in the same boat will. Do you want to risk that? How confident in your relationship are you? Deep? Nope actually easy. Listen, love,care and spend a little time. That’s it.

Now before you go thinking all these people are just in it for sex, stop, some of the men I spoke to, talk about wanting their wives. I found it sweet and heartening. Very few are done in their relationships. Just need to talk it out with someone they don’t know. Yes, a few feel trapped and need an outlet. But for the most part it wasn’t like that. I myself was on the site reading about different experiences and needing an outlet. I was feeling lonely and disconnected. Not looking for an online relationship. Just an outlet, like this, but with interaction.

So this took a different direction than what I had intended. Lol! I was going to write about hitting 50 and thinking maybe a change is needed. This experience I’ve had above didn’t make me feel this way. I already felt like I needed something else. I actually decided to get healthy. Well, a healthy body leads to a healthy mind. The fog cleared and all I could think is my life needs a change. I had to take a long hard look at myself. I found that work is what’s needed here. Inside and out. The only person that can do this is me. My happiness is on me. Time to take the path less traveled.

I’m in a committed relationship, have been for many years. However, I only want the same for him. A subject for another day.

Many blessings…

La vida siempre…

Todavia esperando el viento de libertad..

Funny but I found this old blog from years ago, one that I used as an outlet. I used the blog and hobbies to help deal with the fact that something was missing. My soul needed… I actually thought I knew just what it needed, but found it unattainable. I blamed circumstances beyond my control.  It is what it is, right?

Made a few changes to my life and not only did it change my health but it cleared my mind. Changed my thinking.

I have gone through stages of sadness, self loathing, and finally the realization that you only have yourself in this life. No matter what, the decisions you make have you where you are.

Happy? This is the question, are you happy?  So what makes you happy? Even this may not be just what you think. I have come to the find that love and family are all I need. The simple things, like you hear the old folks tell. Well dang, they are so right.  I am the old folk now!

You hear all the clichés like just do it, and whatever else, but life is hard and you just keep going because let’s face it, it’s just easier…

Change, change is hard. Not knowing how it’s going to pan out that’s scary as heck. No matter how much you plan and save one little glitch can ruin the whole thing. So do you keep on with the known and just keep being unhappy? Do you take the plunge into the unknown and take the chance on happiness? I’m gonna take the plunge.  There are few things I want to do before I can’t and its time.

This is where I’m going to let it all hang out. Vamos a ver que pasa.