Grateful

April 12, 2025Leave a comment

Started this post a few days ago then got busy.

The song was what prompted the post.

Today woke up angry.

Just not a happy camper. I can feel anger emanating. So Unlike me.

This little face warmed my heart

Spent a little time with her, then off to work. Still angry. Now let me just say I try to keep the negative thoughts to myself. Lots of self talk… came here to vent. Found the draft from the other morning. It had this song and it reminded me of the morning I first heard it. Yeah so much better.

Grateful I woke up again (Amen) Woke up and took a breath again (Yahweh) Looked up and saw the sun again(oh) I’m grateful for the eyes I have (Amen) I’m moving all my toes again (Amen) I’m grateful for the wind against my face(hum) I’m grateful for the sensation(sensation) Of a loved one’s embrace.

Grateful for all this and more.

Peace and so much love

Raq

Currently

December 6, 2024December 6, 2024Leave a comment

A vacant heart, a silent mind,
No tears to fall, no pain to find.
A canvas bare, no colors bright,
Just quiet strength, a healing light.

The echoes fade, the storm now gone,
A hollow space where grief once shone.
No joy, no sorrow, just a pause,
A steady breath, a healing cause.

Like shattered glass, the pieces mend,
A new beginning, a journey to ascend.
No pulse of emotion, yet a steady beat,
A quiet healing, bittersweet.

I guess all I really need is a little good news.

✌️🖤

Raq

A Symptom

May 8, 2024May 8, 2024Leave a comment

A symptom of being human.

I can’t help but think of you when I hear this song.

Not that you even remember when my birthday is or that November rain is a favorite song.

Maybe it’s just the group and how obsessed you were with them.

So I guess memories, feelings and songs can be symptoms of being human.

No matter, the song is amazing, where you lack lol.

We’re all just passing through
Passengers on a ship of fools

✌️❤️

Raq

What the Universe!?

May 2, 20245 Comments

So yeah the Universe is always throwing it back.. In your face

Go bug somebody else, so I can sleep at night
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else’s life

Those ending lyrics there, well, they caught my ear. Made me turn around and say huh, did I just hear that? After a fast Google search, why, yes, yes you did. Heh.

If you get away from that someone, the devil always sends them back.. to see if you’re still a fool.. Not today Satan! Not today!

✌️❤️

Raq

Love on the Rocks

April 12, 2024April 12, 20244 Comments

This movie!

The songs…

Ok so I really never appreciated Neil Diamonds talents. That is until I saw The Jazz singer. Which I happen to be watching again as we speak.

At first they say they want you, hear how they really need you
Suddenly you find you’re out there walking in a storm..

Some really amazing lyrics (these stick out right about now), and his voice, well it’s pretty good too…

So if you’re looking for something with some boom, boom, boom.. this is the movie.

✌️❤️

Raq

What if?

April 3, 2024April 4, 2024Leave a comment

What if I’m just sitting here

Minding my own business

Watching an old movie.

The Universe sends me a notice through Apple Music.

Hey! Listen to this song…

What if I don’t deserve it?
What if I never find real love?
What if I’m always searching
But the problem was me all along?

These lyrics cannot resonate with a Scorpio…

But boy, for just a couple of minutes I felt all those feelings.

I AM enough, so are you…

✌️❤️

Raq

Pick up the phone

March 28, 2024March 28, 20249 Comments

So I heard this song a little while ago.

It brought up feelings… like I actually have those.. ok, so I must.

Who do I have like this?… no, I mean really?

Lots will say oh you can count on me, I’ll be there whenever. In actuality? Nadie, nobody. Is that the empty feeling in the pit of my soul?

ok, I’m sure you’re thinking are you there for others? I’d like to think I am. Don’t we all?

I will fill it with…

This amazing song, for now.

You’re not alone, just pick up the phone
And call me whenever you’re feeling lonely
Remember you told me
You’re not alone, just pick up the phone

Sweet lyrics…

I wish you love and peace,

Raq

Just another day in paradise

March 11, 2024March 11, 2024Leave a comment

Miss me? crickets…

Still here! Alive and all.

So it’s been a week!

Got some new ink! About time right?

So this piece was a learning experience. Have you ever heard of the tattoo flu? It’s a real thing. Google it.

The day of the tattoo I was so busy. I kept thinking I’ll get something to eat in a sec. Sec never happened and then, omg, I better go so I won’t be late. So all went well til it didn’t. My artist was working and I started to feel a chill. I had my jacket over my legs and started to feel a chill. This should have been a clue. I asked my artist is it cold in here? She said “no, it’s pretty nice in here actually. So we continued. Talking and tatting.. She’s a beautiful girl and we talked about all sorts of things. Afterward I stood up put on my jacket and started to shake. There was a woman standing next to me who said you’re going into shock.. I was all what? I’ve had numerous tattoos never , have I ever, experienced anything close to this. So I walked outside to go to my vehicle. Saw a friend and told her I can’t stop shaking, she says, you’re going into shock. So everyone knows this but me? I went to my car turned up the heat and the seat warmer. Texted someone else who immediately got concerned. Isn’t it funny who you tell things to when there’s a problem? Lesson learned is all I can say. Next time, full meal. taking water and a friend.

So it took me a week to get over whatever I had and it was no picnic. Still nursing a fever blister on the lip.

So here’s a picture of the offending tattoo.

Pretty isn’t it?

It’s blue his favorite color. He loved snakes as well. I have so many pictures with him holding a rattler. I was always scared he was going to get bitten. The Orchid for strength to keep living without him in this life. Something beautiful has to come out of something so awful. Doesn’t it?

I will always miss him.

One of his favorites

I hope your heart is at peace and you are fully loved.

✌️🖤

Raq

What’s Age got to do with it?

May 21, 2023March 11, 20242 Comments

At what age is age important?

I say you’re too young, with a reply of … that doesn’t matter.

Yeah, I’m thinking it does.

I see older men younger women all the time. Sure that he must have money stigma is there but they could actually be in love right? Now the other way.. why is that different?

However, why are there so many men, young men out there asking older women out? What’s happened? Did I miss something? A friend is widowed (it’s been like 5 years, so don’t judge) and loving her new found freedom. She says the young guys want older women because they are confident and not looking for a sugar daddy. Ok but are the guys looking for a sugar momma? Lol.. ahh the other side of the story.

Now the amazing opening was in Spanish and you all know that my language is sexy.. With all due respect I find you so beautiful. Really? I’ve known you about a year.. didn’t see that coming, then the offer was a star filled night talking about things we don’t understand. Damn it… do you know me? Lol

Then the actual problem.. yeah, I’ll not get into all that.

Nothing a little month nap and some outdoorsy stuff can’t fix. Let’s steal away and watch a sunset.

Alone?

Come and see.. wait, you’re here 😉