Just another day in paradise

March 11, 2024March 11, 2024Leave a comment

Miss me? crickets…

Still here! Alive and all.

So it’s been a week!

Got some new ink! About time right?

So this piece was a learning experience. Have you ever heard of the tattoo flu? It’s a real thing. Google it.

The day of the tattoo I was so busy. I kept thinking I’ll get something to eat in a sec. Sec never happened and then, omg, I better go so I won’t be late. So all went well til it didn’t. My artist was working and I started to feel a chill. I had my jacket over my legs and started to feel a chill. This should have been a clue. I asked my artist is it cold in here? She said “no, it’s pretty nice in here actually. So we continued. Talking and tatting.. She’s a beautiful girl and we talked about all sorts of things. Afterward I stood up put on my jacket and started to shake. There was a woman standing next to me who said you’re going into shock.. I was all what? I’ve had numerous tattoos never , have I ever, experienced anything close to this. So I walked outside to go to my vehicle. Saw a friend and told her I can’t stop shaking, she says, you’re going into shock. So everyone knows this but me? I went to my car turned up the heat and the seat warmer. Texted someone else who immediately got concerned. Isn’t it funny who you tell things to when there’s a problem? Lesson learned is all I can say. Next time, full meal. taking water and a friend.

So it took me a week to get over whatever I had and it was no picnic. Still nursing a fever blister on the lip.

So here’s a picture of the offending tattoo.

Pretty isn’t it?

It’s blue his favorite color. He loved snakes as well. I have so many pictures with him holding a rattler. I was always scared he was going to get bitten. The Orchid for strength to keep living without him in this life. Something beautiful has to come out of something so awful. Doesn’t it?

I will always miss him.

One of his favorites

I hope your heart is at peace and you are fully loved.

✌️🖤

Raq

More Than

July 9, 2023July 9, 20233 Comments

More than

This body, this face

As I sit here looking at my last surviving child that is intubated and has tubes running in and out of her body. It hits so hard how we are so much more than this body that houses our being.

She is sunshine, happiness, kindness and love..

When she was a child I remember being at a hospital visiting someone and it was her birthday. My daughters birthday. She was tiny, maybe 4 or 5. She had chosen a Barbie at the store because we were out of town. While we were in the waiting room there was a sick child she saw and spoke to. Yes, it was a long time ago. She pulled me aside and asked if she could give the little girl the doll. Of course I said yes, and I got a bit emotional. But that’s when I knew the heart in my child. As she got older it got more expensive. She couldn’t see someone not having what she had.

Now don’t get it twisted she has the heart of a lion. I’ve seen her take on her brother for fun and anyone who threatens someone she loves.

But the goodness outweighs all the bad.

No matter what happens she will be ok.. so will I. Because I got to be her mom.

Dandelions

October 29, 2022Leave a comment

So all up in the feels..

And I see forever in your eyes
I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

But when you say.. I just want to see you smile….

✌️❤️

Hello my old heart

October 28, 2022Leave a comment

Ahh the Universe…

Always sending the perfect songs at the perfect times….

Nothing lasts forever
Some things aren’t meant to be
But you’ll never find the answers
Until you set your old heart free

Doors close, so new ones can open.

Isn’t it lovely?

✌️❤️

Raq

How it feels

July 17, 2022July 17, 2022Leave a comment

How does it feel?

Going through daily motions, when it’s obvious that it’s the last thing a person wants to do.

Maybe a good disconnect… or reconnect? Ha!

My first song choice fell away as soon as this came on.

Because seriously you don’t know how it feels, until it’s you.

Let me run with you tonight
I’ll take you on a moonlight ride

… There’s someone I used to see
But he don’t give a damn for me

… But let me get to the point, let’s roll another joint
And turn the radio loud, I’m too alone to be proud
And you don’t know how it feels
You don’t know how it feels to be me

Yup a song for everything….

✌️ 🖤

Escape with me

February 26, 2021Leave a comment

Ok so here we go again, another weekend starting up!

Vamos!

Yep like that ^

✌️ 🖤

Raq

Parting ways

December 31, 2020Leave a comment

Parting ways…

With 2020…. heh, you were thinking?

But yeah let’s take on 2021 and make it count.

Only the real and meaningful …

Peace, health and many, many blessings to all.

Let us not forget love… the greatest is love

Raq

Days like this

September 28, 20202 Comments

Going back….

Hitting the trail and just enjoying life.

Such a beautiful morning for a fresh start..

✌️❤️

Raq

Rejuvenate in nature

August 27, 2020August 27, 20207 Comments

I always feel rejuvenated when I get to spend some time in the mountains. Brace yourself I took a few… ok, a lot of pictures…

I went to the city in the clouds.. also known as Cloudcroft NM.

I took my little rv to a place called Cool Pines.. the park was set in…. you guessed it… pine trees! Yes, it was nice and cool too. There was no WiFi and that’s ok by me… but truthfully there wasn’t anything special about this little rv park. We were parked in space 11, yeah my favorite number, however, the guy on his little cart parked us a bit too far up then was all yeah, maybe that’s too far up. Ya think? Then as he was leaving tells the guy behind us, who I had already waved at, and he had waved back, burying his nose back into his phone, she’s got dogs…. he responded with, I got your number… irritated… that was me.

So I set up, all the while ignoring my not so kind neighbor. Who by the way had a huge older dog himself.

Ok…. shake it off and just enjoy… which I did. I drove into town for a couple things.. and I walked into the Kings treasure, it’s a thrift store in Cloudcroft. This book caught my attention and so of course I bought it. Glad I did. I read it in its entirety before coming home. It had been awhile since I got so into a book. Something else had been my focus. That is done and gone.

The RV always gets a bit of attention. Even in these days of social distancing. A very sweet couple from Austin Tx stopped by as they were out walking their pup. We talked about their rig and mine. They said they will be checking out the place mine came from since it was the city they were from. Lol. When I told them I had planned on a hike to a waterfall, they promptly told me, Oh no we are not hikers 😂.

I spent the evening on my love seat, outside, under the pines with my trusty companions. Oh, and I picked up a cute little bottle this lady in town told me was good stuff.