My healing journey

I would be remiss if I didn’t share this aspect of my life.

Recent happenings have brought to my attention that I haven’t actually posted this.

Brace yourself, this could take a bit. I’m passionate about this stuff. I’ve lived it you know.

🤔 I can go way back but let’s not.

I was sick and getting sicker. My doctors were cool about giving me meds for anything and everything. Then proudly saying I don’t know what could be causing this.

The change came when my migraines got worse and the mere touch of my temples sent me reeling. I remember one day the pain being so bad in my head I didn’t know what to do, sit? Stand? Bang my head on the wall? I was so scared. I also had a couple of lumps. In the places women do not want them. Breast and underarm.

For the headaches I was given stronger meds that dissolve under the tongue and the lumps well you know how that goes. Tests and maybe cut them out or watch them. I was even offered anti depressants. They help with pain did you know this?

I’m a freaking ray of sunshine most of the time in case you didn’t know. Lol. I was not into that.

Well, all I could think was I’m not into drugs and I’m not going down this route. I asked the drs how this happened and how to stop it. They had no clue. Said maybe it was due to my age and that I needed to lose weight. Jerks 😆 No real fix though.

So the heck with that! I began a search into healing. Saw the Joe Cross documentary, Fat, Sick and nearly dead. The next day went and bought a juicer and juiced for 25 days straight. That’s right no food passed these lips. Juice that I made myself from fresh organic fruits and vegetables only. Killer right? The first three days were the most miserable days of my life. I wanted to die on the 3rd. But on the fourth day? It was like the heavens opened and let the true light shine on my darkened soul. I could see hear and just think more clearly. Like this thick fog had just cleared. This was just the beginning.

So yeah, there are stages of healing when you do a liquid fast. So I knew if I messed up I would have to start all over. No way was I going to restart. Talk about motivation. The hunger actually went away after a couple days and it was a great healing experience. I stopped all my meds. Now I did this on my own and no I’m not telling anyone to do this. Talk to your drs. I on the other hand was done talking. So yeah, I stopped them all and to this day haven’t taken any again. Five years now baby.✌️

I lost a few pounds too, boo ya drs! Yeah I need to still lose more. I’m not dissing doctors, they just have a place. When I broke my wrist, they fixed me right up. I have no reason to see them otherwise. I mean even their tests are toxic. So I’m good. Did you know doctors have very little training in nutrition?

I guess I should straighten out the fact that the food doesn’t actually heal you. But giving your body the right fuel helps it to heal itself. Think of a vehicle. Would you put water in a tank and expect it to run? But look what you put in your body. We are over fed and under nourished.

I read everything I could and watched documentaries as well as YouTube videos about health and it kept leading me to a plant based life.

It’s not easy, the people around you are the worst. It’s like they think you expect them to follow suit or something. I’m not sure why but sometimes, there is anger. They seem to have the need to prove we need meat. Then there’s all the killing animal jokes and needing a burger, haha I’ve never heard that one 🙄

Then there’s the protein question so let’s get it out of the way. We really don’t need as much protein as we are led to believe. There are studies that prove it. I will hook you up to places to get info later on. So you don’t have to take my word for it. I mean take a look at the animals eaten and what they eat. No additional protein needed. Look how large they get. Plants have all the protein we will ever need. Have you ever heard of anyone having a protein deficiency?

Carbs are life!

So as I’m reading and listening I learned a few other things. The Vegan guilt. So much guilt. It’s a stage that I read about but I had already been feeling it. If you don’t want to know why, stop reading now. 🙂 But I was raised on a farm. Animals had a place and a job and were sometimes slaughtered for food. I hunted with my father and brothers. I loved to fish. I was raised by three very outdoorsy men. Guilt. These animals don’t have a choice or a voice. Don’t bother trying to tell me otherwise. This is my path and I’ll live it in peace. I just wish I had known sooner. A person cannot say they love animals and eat meat. It just cannot be. There is no humane way to kill a living being either. Sorry. If you want to see some horror watch Earthlings a documentary.

I will never in my life hurt another living creature. Never. Nor will I pay anyone else to do so.

So with the healing of your body comes the healing of your mind. Which can lead you down some pretty ugly roads. You see yourself and the decisions you’ve made as well as the relationships you’ve had and want or don’t.

I also know what I want for the rest of my life. It’s so very basic for me now. I want to be near the people I love. Have open doors to anyone who needs to hangout and veg. Lol, I kill me. But seriously, there are friends I haven’t seen in quite awhile and by gosh I want to spend quality time with them. So I’m hoping they come stay with me awhile. We are not promised tomorrow are we? New friends too. Mi casa es tu casa. I actually mean it. I tell everyone if you want to start this way of life or juice and want help, I’m here. I will juice with you even.

I will live a life that I hope inspires others to live their best life.

I believe in love! My love life is complicated. I want the one. I also want to be the one. I only want what I would give. I don’t understand how someone can say they love you, and not care about your happiness, or consider your feelings when they do something. I’m a romantic fool nothing will cure this 💕

Freedom? I am free for the most part. But only because I have taken my freedom. This may lead to more changes but I’m cool with that.

https://youtu.be/GsZjSxtame8

I go to a gym every morning and have met new people and reunited with people from my past. I have heard so many crazy stories of illnesses and when I tell my story I get the omg she’s crazy look or the I can’t give up meat or cheese! I’m not asking anyone to do anything, but you asked me my deal so there you go. The women are all omg it’s you!? You look great, and some have even said I look better than when we were in school. Damn! I thought I was kinda cute in school! Ok not really, but dang gimme a break. It’s nice to hear, but it’s not about that. It’s that I feel great, have so much energy and you can too. One guy actually checked out a website I told him about and has been plant based a whole week. He feels better and looks great. His motivator is his heart. Doctors have told him he’s very close to a heart attack. You have no idea how he made me feel today, when he told me he checked out the website and has been keeping to it. Rock on lil buddy. I told him soon as my house is ready he’s coming over to hang. He’s all into it and I’m as excited as he is.

My family? Some are veg some aren’t. I have stories! My favorite one is when my grandkids go around telling their friends I’m their plant based Grandma and they are proud of me. Shoot, I’m the cool, fruit eating, bicycling grandma. When we are together and someone asks if I’m their mom, my heart swells when they say all proud no man, that’s my grandma! 🙂

Now I want to give you info and if you’re interested check it out. See for yourself.

I’ve told you about Joe Cross. He’s obviously my hero. So check him out. His documentary is Fat, sick and nearly dead. If you want to juice fast like I did here’s a Link where you can get info, recipes and guided help if you want.

Forks over knives a great website for info and recipes. There’s a link to their documentary on Netflix there. Watch it, it’s really good. They are on Facebook too. The page is amazing and so many uplifting stories to read.

Dr. Micheal Gregor his book How Not to Die is to die for. 😆 ok, humor people! He’s nothing but info. His YouTube channel is the stuff too. He shows all the actual studies here.

Dr. McDougall The fat you eat is the fat you wear, one of his favorite sayings lol. Recipes and knowledge on that site! He has some amazing videos on YouTube as well.

Dr Fuhrman his book Eat to live is great too.

T. Colin Campbell wrote The China Study. Great book and website.

Jason Vale

https://youtu.be/Aaxa7rxEbyk

Love this documentary

If you want to talk or have questions I’m here any time. My email is in the contact info. You have my Twitter and Instagram here as well.

So live your best life now, go veg!

Many blessings

Raq💕

P.S. you may want to see this as well.

https://www.facebook.com/garytvcom/videos/1315715418565207/

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Giving Thanks

So much to be thankful for.

This is the first Thanksgiving with my family in 17 years. It’s already so emotional.

We’ve had to rent a place since there will be a few more than usual.

Along with my family are my friends, both in the real world as well as my internet ones.

You.. I am very grateful for you…

I am truly blessed.

So much love and so many blessings to you.

Raq 😘

Sola, solita

No one else needed.

Solo bike ride on a beautiful day!

This here rebel Raq took off to check out the great outdoors..

Ok, so lately I have broken my wrist, fallen a couple times and let’s just say graceful hasn’t been in my vocabulary.

I was a little worried and excited about taking off on my own this morning. So I got all ready wrapped my wrist, sunglasses, keys and off I go! A few miles in I realized I forgot my helmet! Oh and ID? Nope nada. Had my phone, headphones and some coconut water. Oh well I figured if I fall it’s not usually my head that takes the hit. I know, the way my luck has been running it would be the first thing to hit the pavement… lol

Took it easy and just enjoyed myself.

Going to enjoy this trail all I can for now. There was quite a fire near here yesterday so there is still some smoke in the air as you can see in the pics.

This song came on and I could swear it was my trusty steed (bike) singing to me! 😉

So the rest of the day will be packing boxes and this song sola, solita in the head .. lol

Have an amazing day! Much love!

I hope you’re Happy!

Happiness?

Where do you find yours?

As for me, The more I think of it, the more reasons I come up with. As usual, more than the small post I originally planned on. So my list for now, love!!! Remember when you first fell in love? That stupid smile on your face that made your cheeks hurt and you didn’t even realize you were smiling, until someone asked you what the deal was? Ha! Yeah, I knew you would. Hanging with family, an amazing bike ride on a beautiful day. Wildflowers, laughter, a child’s wonder, music, my dogs, any dog, or animal, not having to go to work tomorrow, finding amazing vegan food when you thought there wouldn’t be any. Omg, the list can go on and on…

Always nice to see others happy as well.

Nevertheless, if you’re not happy in this moment, wait another, think of that time you were. There are always three words I lean on in life, and they are, it goes on. Lol

I was sent this picture today, its local and I love sunflowers. It’s sweet when something so amazing reminds someone of you, isn’t it?

Plus this song! I just love it. Yeah it reminds me of someone and I do hope they are happy.

I hope you’re happy!

Bye bye monkey

That one on my back,

See ya!

Hasta!

Today is lit with possibilities…

Last few days have been rough.. but, I’ve centered my fruity ass and can take it on…

Thanks to those of you who throw out all the inspiration. Much love to you!

I got a mind full of aggravation

I can take it if I just relax

I say a prayer for the motivation

Keep me solid so I stay on track

But there’s a monkey on my back

And it don’t know how to act

Got me climbin’ up and down the walls

Now I gotta make a choice

Maybe then I can rejoice

‘Cause I’m sick of all the same withdrawals

I got a mind full of inspiration

And I ain’t livin’ in the past no more

So feast your eyes

On the big, blue sky

And wave bye bye

From a long, black Cadillac

Pay the price

Gotta roll those dice

And wave bye bye

From a long, black Cadillac

From a long, black Cadillac (Cadillac)

What’s your butterfly?

We all chase our butterflies, 🦋 be it love, money, freedom.

Different times of our lives leave us chasing different ones too.

Right now this butterfly 🦋 of freedom is work! However, I think one of my other butterflies might have actually let me go! Pinche butterfly. Lol!!

Glad there are so many other butterflies to draw in. Just have to get some flowers I suppose.

What’s your butterfly?

I was inspired to write this while working out and this song came on.

Always the music isn’t it?

I painted your room at midnight

So I’d know yesterday was over

I put all your books on the top shelf

Even the one with the four leaf clover

Man I’m getting older

I took all your pictures off the wall

And I wrapped them in a newspaper blanket

And I haven’t slept in what seems like a century

And now I can barely breathe

Just like the crow chasing the butterfly

Dandelions lost in the summer sky

Cause when you and I were gettin’ high as outer space

I never thought you would slip away

I guess I was just a little too late

I was just a little too late

I was just a little too, little too late

New day, New love

So yeah new day. Full of sunshine and hope. Going to the beach to hang out and catch some rays. Then later watch Los Lonely boys play some tunes. This is the kind of day that starts out with the promise of goodness!

Boxes be damned!

You thought I was gonna get all mushy about love I suppose. Ok so here it is… love is more of an illusion. Like a wisp of smoke sometimes you see it or feel it for a second then it tapers off and away.. then it begins again. But it’s enough of a reality to keep us hooked. Just read Rumi or Pablo Neruda or whoever else you choose. One of my favorite Spanish quotes is, de illusión también se vive. Meaning, Of hope also one lives. Figurative Translation: Life is not always about “getting there” or getting what you want, but also about the dreaming of getting there. Hopes and dreams are what keep us going. The translations are always so tricky.  Of course this is just my take on it. Wanna tell me yours? By all means, please do.

So many different kinds of love though, I may have taken on more than I originally planned.

So like me…

I said new love today, because I already love today, the promise of being out with others and enjoying it all.

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I hope your day is ridiculously amazing and full of love!

Had to come back to say Los Lonely Boys are not very Lonely.. ha! They rocked!!

Right now, right now

So many things happening at this time, and not happening at this time. So just a little update.

Boxes being packed on one side of the house and at work.

One week left at work. Ok, yeah, I do a happy dance every morning when I get to work. My coworkers text and email the countdown every day, down to the minutes. They are so happy for me and for the seat I’m leaving open to them. Lol

However, this move is much more that just a physical move to me. I’m done with everything from yesterday. My past has molded me, yet I’m done with it. Fifty-five years and I’m making my own rules or non rules for the rest of my life. The proverbial box is no longer my home.

I’m into love and happiness. My home will only have room for this. I know this sounds simple, and maybe a little woo woo, but it isn’t where there are different views on life and it’s so called rules. It’s going to be interesting to say the least.

Freedom comes in different forms and in the last few years I have found that once you reach a certain point, not everyone is going to be happy with your change. I’ve said before it’s so much easier to keep your head down and just keep going. Not making waves. Well I’m riding this one all the way.

Living la Vida! One moment at a time and in the moment with those who choose to share the same.

Have you hit the 50 mark?

I’ve talked to so many people recently, that have hit their 50’s and are wondering what happened.

I’m fessing up to joining up on a website where you can be anonymously yourself and talk to others about whatever your lil heart desires. Yeah, it can be dirty or just be a place where you can let your hair down and speak your piece, or not. It’s a bit freeing.

I did learn that we all have our little secrets. So many of us walking around with that smiling mask, that even our closest people never see under. Now before you go judging me or my cohorts, take a look under yours.

Do you have a significant other that had asked you for something recently, or even in the past few years? Did they harp on it then suddenly quit? Did anything change? Do you want to keep that person? Now this can be anything. Usually sex yes, but can also be how or where you’re living. It can be anything this person holds dear or close. So don’t dismiss it as just a phase or whim. Listen people! Listen to your people! Because let me tell you if you don’t someone else in the same boat will. Do you want to risk that? How confident in your relationship are you? Deep? Nope actually easy. Listen, love,care and spend a little time. That’s it.

Now before you go thinking all these people are just in it for sex, stop, some of the men I spoke to, talk about wanting their wives. I found it sweet and heartening. Very few are done in their relationships. Just need to talk it out with someone they don’t know. Yes, a few feel trapped and need an outlet. But for the most part it wasn’t like that. I myself was on the site reading about different experiences and needing an outlet. I was feeling lonely and disconnected. Not looking for an online relationship. Just an outlet, like this, but with interaction.

So this took a different direction than what I had intended. Lol! I was going to write about hitting 50 and thinking maybe a change is needed. This experience I’ve had above didn’t make me feel this way. I already felt like I needed something else. I actually decided to get healthy. Well, a healthy body leads to a healthy mind. The fog cleared and all I could think is my life needs a change. I had to take a long hard look at myself. I found that work is what’s needed here. Inside and out. The only person that can do this is me. My happiness is on me. Time to take the path less traveled.

I’m in a committed relationship, have been for many years. However, I only want the same for him. A subject for another day.

Many blessings…

Oopsie

So while I get ready to take the big plunge, I’ve decided to enjoy the beautiful California bike trails. Riding my my vintage road bike alone gives me this amazing feeling of freedom. I use Strava and try to push myself to get faster and just stronger.

So I take off this beautiful Saturday morning. AirPods in, some kicking ass music. I felt amazing. I was having the best ride. I even saw a beautiful mountain lion, a gorgeous deer jumped out in front of me and it was just going great. I know you feel it coming lol… so I had thought I’m going out 10 Miles back 10. I went out the 10 and the lion was so on my mind. I need a picture or no one will believe it. So on the way back, I see two young ladies on the trail and I slow down tell them to be careful since I saw a mountain lion earlier. One young lady, was so scared telling me we just saw it, it’s right over there and she points behind me. I turned around but I didn’t see it. She continues, saying we didn’t know what to do, and we were waiting for some bike riders to come along. Poor thing, she was so scared. She asked if I had ever heard of them attacking anyone in the area. I haven’t but I guess it’s possible, right? I felt no fear. Which now that I think of it maybe should have. Anyway, I told her to go ahead and I was going back to see if I could get a picture of the cat. I looked around a bit and never saw it. However time was passing and of course there are things to do. I left and after a few miles I felt my energy quickly depleting. Lowest gear barely moving kind of bad. I had water on me, that’s it. I usually pack a few dates, but not today. There was a small hill and that was it, nothing left! Left clip out, right clip, right clip? Uhh yeah that’s me on the ground. Dang it! I was done… I dragged my sorry self over out of the way and sat there. Damn that’s embarrassing. No one saw me fall but the ego took quite a hit. I sat there trying to rest up a bit so I could move on and get home. Ok, so like, I felt pain all over, but when I tried to get up my right wrist wasn’t having it. What the heck!? Is that really so painful? I got up using my left side thinking ah it can’t be that bad. Um, I can’t even get back on the bike!! My arm starts shaking and it finally registers in my head, you have messed up big time now. So I make the call of shame. Hello? Husband? I messed up my arm and can’t ride my bike back. I think I need a ride to the ER. His response? WHAT!? Lol yeah I need a ride if possible. So he drove to the closest spot he could and I walked about 4 miles to the truck. I’m shaking my head now, just thinking about it.

My inner voice kept telling me, stop, rest a little while. But, no, I had to hurry since it was getting late. Lesson learned the hard way. Plus I ruined that whole day. ER took all day, and a month of bike riding. Cast is now off, however wrist is weak and stiff. I will be riding that same bike tomorrow. Stay tuned lol.

You would think this would make me second guess my plans. However, it hasn’t I feel as though this is just something that’s happened and it’s over.

It’s like I’m in this place inside myself. Focused, and there’s this calm in my soul. Love and light emanate. Nothing seems to bother me, hurt me yes. My feelings can be hurt but when I look into myself, I find that place again, and all is well. My path is lit and here I go.

Blessings