A symptom of being human.
I can’t help but think of you when I hear this song.
Not that you even remember when my birthday is or that November rain is a favorite song.
Maybe it’s just the group and how obsessed you were with them.
So I guess memories, feelings and songs can be symptoms of being human.
No matter, the song is amazing, where you lack lol.
We’re all just passing through
Passengers on a ship of fools
✌️❤️
Raq
The twists and turns of life.
How is it that when something devastating happens you think this is it. Yet, you go on. Like, you just fake it, til you make it. It’s gotten hairy in the last couple, three years but I’m still standing.
The people you need to have around for comfort ? Well, let’s say who?
The last couple days, I hear from someone who was checking out the greener grass.. I, like a fool check out that site.. the one with the green, or magenta grass.. sheesh. You tried so hard, and what happened?
I’m not the same person anymore. Life has gone on., so have I. See my grass is really green. Besides, who wants what anyone can have?
Lock me up in a maze
Turn out, turn out the lights
I was born, I was raised for this
Turn out, turn out the lights
Lock me up inside a cage
Just throw away the key, don’t worry bout me..
I can do this with my eyes closed…
✌️❤️
Raq
What if I’m just sitting here
Minding my own business
Watching an old movie.
The Universe sends me a notice through Apple Music.
Hey! Listen to this song…
What if I don’t deserve it?
What if I never find real love?
What if I’m always searching
But the problem was me all along?
These lyrics cannot resonate with a Scorpio…
But boy, for just a couple of minutes I felt all those feelings.
I AM enough, so are you…
✌️❤️
Raq
So I heard this song a little while ago.
It brought up feelings… like I actually have those.. ok, so I must.
Who do I have like this?… no, I mean really?
Lots will say oh you can count on me, I’ll be there whenever. In actuality? Nadie, nobody. Is that the empty feeling in the pit of my soul?
ok, I’m sure you’re thinking are you there for others? I’d like to think I am. Don’t we all?
I will fill it with…
This amazing song, for now.
You’re not alone, just pick up the phone
And call me whenever you’re feeling lonely
Remember you told me
You’re not alone, just pick up the phone
Sweet lyrics…
I wish you love and peace,
Raq
Miss me? crickets…
Still here! Alive and all.
So it’s been a week!
Got some new ink! About time right?
So this piece was a learning experience. Have you ever heard of the tattoo flu? It’s a real thing. Google it.
The day of the tattoo I was so busy. I kept thinking I’ll get something to eat in a sec. Sec never happened and then, omg, I better go so I won’t be late. So all went well til it didn’t. My artist was working and I started to feel a chill. I had my jacket over my legs and started to feel a chill. This should have been a clue. I asked my artist is it cold in here? She said “no, it’s pretty nice in here actually. So we continued. Talking and tatting.. She’s a beautiful girl and we talked about all sorts of things. Afterward I stood up put on my jacket and started to shake. There was a woman standing next to me who said you’re going into shock.. I was all what? I’ve had numerous tattoos never , have I ever, experienced anything close to this. So I walked outside to go to my vehicle. Saw a friend and told her I can’t stop shaking, she says, you’re going into shock. So everyone knows this but me? I went to my car turned up the heat and the seat warmer. Texted someone else who immediately got concerned. Isn’t it funny who you tell things to when there’s a problem? Lesson learned is all I can say. Next time, full meal. taking water and a friend.
So it took me a week to get over whatever I had and it was no picnic. Still nursing a fever blister on the lip.
So here’s a picture of the offending tattoo.
Pretty isn’t it?
It’s blue his favorite color. He loved snakes as well. I have so many pictures with him holding a rattler. I was always scared he was going to get bitten. The Orchid for strength to keep living without him in this life. Something beautiful has to come out of something so awful. Doesn’t it?
I will always miss him.
I hope your heart is at peace and you are fully loved.
✌️🖤
Raq
So very jealous of the sun
That warms your brown skin
The wind that lightly caresses you
The time I spend away from you
The song is beautiful, almost fitting
What!? It could happen!
Until we meet again
Raq
More than
This body, this face
As I sit here looking at my last surviving child that is intubated and has tubes running in and out of her body. It hits so hard how we are so much more than this body that houses our being.
She is sunshine, happiness, kindness and love..
When she was a child I remember being at a hospital visiting someone and it was her birthday. My daughters birthday. She was tiny, maybe 4 or 5. She had chosen a Barbie at the store because we were out of town. While we were in the waiting room there was a sick child she saw and spoke to. Yes, it was a long time ago. She pulled me aside and asked if she could give the little girl the doll. Of course I said yes, and I got a bit emotional. But that’s when I knew the heart in my child. As she got older it got more expensive. She couldn’t see someone not having what she had.
Now don’t get it twisted she has the heart of a lion. I’ve seen her take on her brother for fun and anyone who threatens someone she loves.
But the goodness outweighs all the bad.
No matter what happens she will be ok.. so will I. Because I got to be her mom.
R
I love Tyler Perry movies..
Today I watched Diary of a mad black woman, for the upteenth time. Love it.. In his movies karma and forgiveness play a big part and this one is no exception.
For some reason today it was even more meaningful than anytime before.
If I ever loved you, I will love you always. I mean what I say and it’s been a hard pill to swallow that others don’t.
Missing something inside but, knowing that God has this, is everything. The rapture of being alive.
Peace and so much love on this Easter Day..
Raq
Another song! Yes, another, stay on your mind and keep replaying, making you rethink your life… kind of song 🤣
Just a really good song….less words more listening ha!
Keep me safe
We need light, we need love
So like how is it a person can make you feel safe with just their existence. The words they use and air. This song just said it. I’m in awe.
On a different note. I was called a knucklehead head today. In a sweet way even. Never saw that comin 🤣
Another revolution around the sun too!
✌️❤️
So all up in the feels..
And I see forever in your eyes
I feel okay when I see you smile, smile
But when you say.. I just want to see you smile….
✌️❤️
La Vida Raq 